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Jul 29, 2011

Lingering a little longer

Kansas has had some unbearably hot days. Today, I heard a rumbling sound in the distance. That sound we tell our kids is "God moving furniture around in heaven." Thunder. Oh, sweet thunder. It was so good to sense the refreshment it would bring. To hear branches be whisked away along wind's waltz. The shower was short, but I swear our parched, straw-like grass now boasts a smattering of green life.

I "gave" Shawn a break from helping with bedtime (it's always such a production in our house...like an hour to get both kids from bath to slumber). I really tried to enjoy doing the process solo. If Shawn has to work late, I get really bummed when I "hafto" do bedtime routines solo. Tonight was different and good and I felt strong and capable.

Sometimes Wilder asks me to lie with him a bit before he goes down for good. Most of the time I say "yes" even though my mind is whirring with countless chores to complete. Or countless episodes of Big Brother to watch. Or whether or not his little toddler bed will succumb under my weight...

Tonight's particular cuddle was pure sweet, raw soul sugar. It seemed that the 10 minutes were minutes I could see suspended over us, swirling like a constellation, untouchable--then becoming encapsulated into my memory. I was very in tune and aware of the transfer of affection--that's the thing, when I'm in a better place emotionally/spiritually and all around holistically, I can more fully savor such blessings. I am happy I stayed with him for awhile. But I am also sad because one day, he'll no longer ask for me.

He touched my eyebrow..Mommy, is that your eyebrow? It's silly. Yes, Wilder it is. And it looks kind of like a caterpillar. So do yours. They help protect our eyes from dirt.

And we sang our favorite song: Where you go I'll go, where you stay I'll stay, when you move I'll move, I will follow you, yeah, I will follow you. Ohhh oh oh, ohhh oh oh. And his little boy voice, singing up to the Lord of Light, the voice that will one day be low and hormonalish, cracks and bends my heart. In these moments he has me in the palm of his hand.

I kiss his smile. He cracks up. He can't stop. You. Kiss. Need. Kiss. To. Kiss. Go. Kiss. To. Kiss.Sleep.

Mommy, do that again!
Motherhood heals me.

13 comments:

Bethany said...

So true... those are the mommy moments I love best!

alishamcclure said...

Beautiful sentiments!!! I also did not mind doing bedtime solo tonight...looked forward to it and we all had a ton of fun!!

katygirl said...

a few things here:
1. i love big brother. have you been watching it?
2. today miles got real close to my face and i thought he was gonna give me a kiss - he does every once in a while - totally opened mouth and slobbery, you know - but he just bit my nose.

life chasers said...

Pure heaven. Thank you for sharing, I think I will linger a little longer with my babe tonight....

Kristin said...

so true! i always find my mind churning with all the things i need to do, but it's such a precious time to share - and totally worth not getting the dishes done or leaving the laundry in the basket. enjoy your weekend.

Cat said...

Thank you for sharing! with our 3 bedtime can take 90 minutes or more and sometimes the battle of "do I stay and snuggle and lose my whole night or do I 'get stuff done'" can be really tough. Appreciate the reminder that these times are fleeting and we need to drink them up. Your little ones are adorable!

the lowes said...

oh that is sooo precious! im loving your blog btw. :)

Gina said...

love this sweet moment, and that's one of my kids favorites too-I love those powerful words coming out of their sweet, young mouths!

Michelle said...

I usually dread the bedtime routine too if I have to do it alone. Usually Dave does it - snack, bath, lotion, jammies, reading, brush teeth, tuck in, then call for me to tuck in. I have to make my self slow down and live in the moment too because it won't be long before they won't be asking for mommy to tuck them in. I usually crawl into bed with each one and spend a few precious moments breathing it all in when I remind myself to live in the moment. It's so worth it!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for reminding me to always love the small stuff. Jenna

Rachel said...

I'm in Kansas too! This heat has been terrible, hopefully we get a break soon. Or more thunder (with a bit more rain this time!)

ashley @ little miss momma said...

this is a beautiful post and it brought tears to my eyes! you are a fab writer girl! I know exactly what you mean about dreading bedtime because there is so much to get done, but also trying to cherish these moments--it's tough! you are a great momma!

Megs said...

so sweet!! i love this post :)