So often, my heart breaks when I see someone, especially a child, in a wheelchair, or a homeless person lugging his belongings down the street. It is a reminder of the hurt/loss/illness people go through...of a huge sea of humanity with hearts, needs, lives, thoughts, mistakes, longings. And I feel so small and helpless in that sea. It makes me thankful I am hand-in-hand with the One who made the sea. It reminds me that my problems wilt in comparison to those of the majority. It tugs at those heart strings that want to be more involved in ministry and community.
Even at the age of 31, I so often struggle with self-esteem. Wearing shorts in my last "wear" post was a big deal, yo!
So often, I take friendship very seriously. Some friends say I am needy. They are probably right. I am just a quality time girl, and this is a time in my and my friends' lives when we just don't have time for those late night coffee dates anymore. So I resort to texting and just try to make sure the text isn't sent at 1:00 a.m.
VERY often, I hate mornings. Even though Wilder and Story don't get up til 8 or 8:30. Sometimes, when they eat breakfast and watch WordWorld for 25 minutes, I lay down on the couch! I would like to use that time to read my Bible; why do I choose 10pm instead?
Every so often, I nod off during church sermons. I really do try to listen. I just get easily distracted and bored. How did I endure those college lectures?
Every so often, I will think back about college, and what degree(s) I would get if I could return. I am pretty sure I would do entrepreneurialism though I'm not even sure that's a major? Then there's also business management, gerontology, or something with journalism...or history! I'm a knowledge seeker.
Every so often, I will freak out about the 30-day whole foods challenge I'm considering going on on August 20th. I have been eating horribly knowing that I will have to deny myself soon! I am most concerned about being able to afford all those types of foods..and about having self control over sweets. Sweets are a stronghold in my life. I hope I can do it!
Every so often, I can be a very lonely person. I tend to be pretty sensitive if I don't hear from people for awhile. I always tend to think the worst, that it's me, when most of the time, it's because people are busy!