Aug 15, 2012

Every So Often (A Get to Know Me/Wear post)

I love reading "if you really knew me" posts but I don't like to copy, so here is my version.
So often, I am overwhelmed by the love I feel for Wilder and Story. It is so intense, so always on the brink of making my heart explode. But it never does. There are times I am so overcome with emotion for them, with desire for them to know love, that all I can do is cry.
So often, my heart breaks when I see someone, especially a child, in a wheelchair, or a homeless person lugging his belongings down the street. It is a reminder of the hurt/loss/illness people go through...of a huge sea of humanity with hearts, needs, lives, thoughts, mistakes, longings. And I feel so small and helpless in that sea. It makes me thankful I am hand-in-hand with the One who made the sea. It reminds me that my problems wilt in comparison to those of the majority. It tugs at those heart strings that want to be more involved in ministry and community.
Even at the age of 31, I so often struggle with self-esteem. Wearing shorts in my last "wear" post was a big deal, yo!
So often, I take friendship very seriously. Some friends say I am needy. They are probably right. I am just a quality time girl, and this is a time in my and my friends' lives when we just don't have time for those late night coffee dates anymore. So I resort to texting and just try to make sure the text isn't sent at 1:00 a.m.

VERY often, I hate mornings. Even though Wilder and Story don't get up til 8 or 8:30. Sometimes, when they eat breakfast and watch WordWorld for 25 minutes, I lay down on the couch! I would like to use that time to read my Bible; why do I choose 10pm instead?

Every so often, I nod off during church sermons. I really do try to listen. I just get easily distracted and bored. How did I endure those college lectures?
Every so often, I will think back about college, and what degree(s) I would get if I could return. I am pretty sure I would do entrepreneurialism though I'm not even sure that's a major? Then there's also business management, gerontology, or something with journalism...or history! I'm a knowledge seeker.

Every so often, I will freak out about the 30-day whole foods challenge I'm considering going on on August 20th. I have been eating horribly knowing that I will have to deny myself soon! I am most concerned about being able to afford all those types of foods..and about having self control over sweets. Sweets are a stronghold in my life. I hope I can do it!
Every so often, I can be a very lonely person. I tend to be pretty sensitive if I don't hear from people for awhile. I always tend to think the worst, that it's me, when most of the time, it's because people are busy!
What are your "so oftens"?
What I Wore:

Shirt: FreePeople, Tank: St. John's Bay, Jeans: Candies, Wedges: Target
no jewelry! 


Amber said...

What a beauty you are! Thank you for sharing your heart.

Kassie Rew said...

I love all these pictures, but in that last one you look especially beautiful. Thanks for your honesty.

VERY often I hate mornings too. I definitely let my kiddo watch too much tv... :S

Joanna said...

such a lovely post to read. and beautiful pictures. with the sweets! you can do it! the cravings will stop being bad after a couple weeks :)

RedRoseVintage said...

LOVE the photos! And the cake looks DELICIOUS!!!

Leilani @ Soleil Selene said...

Love the pictures. You are gorgeous.

Good luck with your 30-day food challenge. I'll be doing the Beachbody Ultimate Reset for 21 days starting some time next week. So I'll be right there with you struggling with this whole food thing.

Kimberly said...

thanks for letting us get to know you better!

Eric's Mommy said...

I just love reading your blog, it makes me so happy :) Your pictures are beautiful.

CraftygasheadZo said...

Great post - love the pics and your 'often' bits really show more about you and that's fab! Thanks for sharing. Zoxx

Daisy Nguyen said...

LOVE all your pics. Its like a perfect little summer album!

-Daisy Nguyen from PS BANANAS fashion blog:

BeaumontGirl said...

I really like this!!!! So glad you stopped by my blog, following you right back :)

Bethany said...

Lovely, honest post and blog! I followed you. :)

Tulip TrueAim said...

So gorgeous! Can I have some of your style? Thanks for stopping by True Aim!

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