When life takes you on a different path, one you thought you'd never crawl, let alone walk, you wonder if your eyes are peeled open enough to even see the road ahead. To crane your neck just so to look past the roadblocks and remain hopeful for the rainbow, or the ray of light, or the pretty packaged gift at the end of the trying and fighting and yearning and walking and climbing and questioning. I know now that my pretty package with a giant red bow on top...well, it's my opportunity to parent. My darling littles are who the sacrifices and trying are about and for. I see it. My eyes are open wide.
I've realized over the past several months that while I've failed at many things, one thing I have not done is fail my children. Sure, I've made mistakes, and can recall moments I'm not proud of as we all do, but being a mama is the thing I continue to throw myself into and try to excel at. My children will forever be my family; I will always have them and they will always have me. And they need a mother who will not live in feelings of failure.
So often we try to complicate things. We think it's necessary to Pinterest this and paint that, or have our children dress in the best clothes with the best Instagram photos. This isn't where my heart is. I am inspired by those things, for sure, but in this life season, where many uncertain things remain, I must guard my heart against the distractions that abound in the world. There are things that deter me from my course, that take away from beautiful time with my children, and I must simply crack down on going back to the basics.
Back to silly music and laughing and funny faces and wonky artwork hanging on the walls. Love is family and time is what binds a mother to her children. Time is the most valuable gift I have to give to these beautiful loves of mine.
It's nothing new. Nothing life shattering to remember. It's basic. Intrinsic. Necessary. Our calling and position as intentional parents.
May you be given eyes to see the light and blessings along your parenting journey. And enjoy the little red-bowed gifts interspersed to keep you going!
Also I have really cute kids.
And a TON of laundry to catch up on.